Dorm Stress

k, so everyone always says the 6 weeks after Christmas break are the most horrible

and I already agree

you know how I love to take care of everyone, and sometimes forget to take care of myself?

well... it's getting me in trouble again

everyone is stressed out about everything, not just finals, just... everything

so they all come to me

well, not all of them, but several of them

and we sit and talk and cry and i do everything i can to "fix" everything for them

well, eventually it all got to be too much

and i could barely act ok

but i somehow managed to fool most people

the exceptions were Marti, Suzie, and Travis

anyway, I talked to Travis some

and right before he left the dorm last night, he said i could call him if i needed to talk

well... you know how i feel about phones

but he called me, and we talked for probably an hour and a half

and i just sat on Marti's bed eating chocolate and crying and talking to Trav

eventually I had to go to worship

but that was ok, i guess

i thought a lot during worship, and i thought i had things figured out

but i was so exhausted that my the time i got back up stairs, I couldn't remember what I had thought of

or what i had figured out.

ugh. So, I got Marti to call Travis back after worship because I was starting to go crazy again. We talked and talked and talked, we actually ended up talking for another hour and 46 minutes. it was weird, but it helped a lot. I really don't know exactly what I was upset about, but I think I was just over loaded dealing with everything in my life, and everyonelse's.